EMPTY :: Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 5:26 AM
Too free to slack
I enjoyed my sleep today till the max. Woke up at 5pm and felt seriously bored. Just feel like going out, anywhr will do. If not, perhaps my mood will just sink. I don't want myself to feel anything negative, bored or whatsoever.
Met up with JH and RX for dinner. RX said i'm indeed too free that I could come all the way from Whampoa to Tamp just for dinner and go home. LOL. Yeah, I am really very free, all I want is just get out of this house, as simple as that. Darren joined us later and slacked from 7:30 to 10:30 until JH felt real sleepy. Haha..
Initially, CBB and I planned to play badminton on thurs. Then, I asked them to join us too! I'm so excited for thursday! Cos' badminton always been my favourite sport!
Great plans ahead for me this week! Thursday badminton, Friday mahjong and tomorrow SUN-TANNING with my darling! I must sleep now so that I wont be late tomorrow. Hehe..
I'm kind of missing him a lot right now... Felt like really whole-heartedly give my very best to be a super understanding girl friend tho i knew it myself that I'm not really someone like that. I can give him the very best, all the love he wants, everything he needed, jus everything, but could not even give him a simple thing that he wants - Being understanding. Cos' I'll be disappointed if things just don't go the way i want them to be. Its in my character.
I'm thankful to have him instead. I think he's the only person who can really control me when I do not know my limits.. Tells me when I've gone wrong.. Guides me with all the reasonings he had when I'm at lost.. Boost my courage when i have none especially during my very first interview of my life, he even accompany me there.. Angry at me when I do not know how to take care of myself.. Went super duper crazy and angry at that cabby when I got cheated of my money.. Cooks for me when I'm hungry.. Always reminding me to eat my meals cos' he knows i always skipped them.. Forgiving me once and once again when I did wrong.. Knew me so well that he is able to see through all of my thoughts.. Only to wish that I am happy than he can be happy.. The biggest thanks to keep me with unlimited accompany almost everyday ( I think not all men are able to do it, cos men had commitment problems) and able to give commitment to this relationship for me...
Do you want a boyfriend who tells you how much they love you blah blah everyday but did none of the above? Or do you want a boyfriend who did all of the above but do not voice out his love for you?
Am I too late to realise and understand that different guy has their own different way of expressing their love? Some prefer to do more of the talking rather than actions, some the other way round.
I think couples should learn to appreciate every small little things that the other do for you, so that what is done, is not in vain.
I never thought of blogging all these and just happen to type down what I have felt suddenly. I'm not boosting bout him but just wanna let him know that I felt so so so appreciated for what he had done. The more i think of it, i felt touched. Haha why the sudden emotion? Silly me :P
I think all he wants is just to add on "understanding" into his words of vocabulary for me. Maybe when the day comes, I could really be the perfect girl he wants. Really hope one day he would love my jumpy and crazy side of me. Cos' that is when I'm most happy.
If there comes a time when two guys tell you that what they need is an understanding girl friend, you should know that the problem really lies with you. Time to really do something for a change, for a better future.
And.. for happiness!
P/S: CBB DUN GO ALL EMO! WE ALL LOVE YOU! Countdown 1 more day ok? LOL
